He once introduced me as his “best half”, this beautiful boy
of mine – long before we even decided to go all in, but also long after he ate
all my nachos within the first five minutes of meeting him our junior year of
high school. It must have been somewhere
along the halfway point of our twenty-year timeline. It’s gone so fast.
I certainly can’t remember every day of the last two decades
that we’ve spent together, but I can remember most things – the big things. The
biggest thing - how he was there to hold our baby girl from the moment she fought
to take her first breath until the moment her spirit took flight. How he held
me up during the darkest days of my life – how he continues to hold me up - since
then. How he wanted to ask my dad for my hand, and his insistence that it was
the right thing to do, even though I’m slightly north of marriageable age…only
slightly. Ok fine. Try doubling the age of consent in America....+1.
Everyone knows we've been together a long time, but every dog has its day. I mean, every girl gets her day (IF she chooses. Not everyone wants the big party and the pretty dress and the cake and the live animals and French imported mimes, but I do. ALL OF IT. Thank you Pinterest.)
Anyway, he still has the ability to surprise me...even after all this time.
You know what? Sometimes when we’re walking somewhere and he’s
outpaced me by 100 yards because he claims it’s physically uncomfortable to
walk at the speed I’m accustomed to, I’ll eventually spot the blonde and for a
split second wonder who the hell the cute guy is that’s smiling at me. Early
onset Alzheimer’s? Sure, it’s a possibility.
But the thousands of butterflies beating their wings against my heart in that
moment? That’s not indigestion or even irritable bowel syndrome.
It’s love.
I love him. He, who still makes every day feel like a new
adventure with millions and millions of possibilities for pure greatness (and
exhaustion…he really does walk very fast). He, who my soul knows, and has
always known. I like to remind him of the time we would have met in 6th
grade rather than 6 years later. He went to a mutual friend's birthday party, and had I just asked for a piece of paper and pen instead of overestimating
my ability to remember important facts and figures/addresses and phone numbers,
I would have been at that same party. Yes, probably reading a Babysitter’s Club book
somewhere in an unoccupied room, but that was a really good book series.
It's all come together for us in the end, though. Something
similar actually happened to my parents. A missed opportunity years and years
earlier, but their souls eventually made the connection, and in a totally
different country even. No wonder they’re my inspiration when it comes to
marriage. They’re solid.
So here we are. Has it always been a smooth ride? Of course
not. He drives me crazy (especially when it comes to our difference of opinions
regarding what constitutes true exercise). But all
in all, I wouldn’t have wanted to do this with anyone else. I can’t
imagine my life without him.
He and I made our Little Bird. I just wish we could have taken her along for the ride, too.
Twenty years. It’s
been a long while, yet not been enough, all at the same time. I hope we’re
blessed with more.
Love, Light, and Ligaya - CS